You can’t possibly imagine how deeply you cut me. You took all of my childish innocence; believing that love was perfect, that it was happiness and sunshine, and twisted it into something that I’m afraid of.
You know when you’re sat on the ground in the corner of a room sobbing desperately and wondering what you ever did to deserve this? You know those moments when you think to yourself: “Oh god. I will never ever recover. I’m permanently broken.”
That’s what you did to me when you left. I thought I’d be able to cope, but I couldn’t and it hurt more than I’d ever believed possible.
And even though I’m slowly getting better, somedays I see you around and a part of me still wishes I could tell you how much I miss you.
I suppose it depends what you mean by ‘lost’.
If you mean lost in the physical sense, then I’m really sorry and just know that it’ll take time to recover.
It’s more likely that you mean lost emotionally however, in the sense that they’ve replaced you. If this is the case, I share your pain.
I had a best friend of around seven years who recently decided she no longer cared about me. As often as I tried to talk to her, she was always disinterested and a one sided friendship is as heartbreaking as a one sided love (arguably more so when you’ve been inseparable for so long).
In any case, I would refer to the old cliché that what’s meant to be will be. You cannot force a relationship of any sort. If he/she wants to remain friends, they will try and you will feel it. If they don’t, then similarly there’s nothing you can do.
I know I haven’t offered some magical solution and I truly wish I could, but I’m searching for the same answers as you. I can only hope your best friend and you get back to where you were before.
I hope you find happiness.
You know it’s love when you feel this irrepressible anger if someone hurts him and an overwhelming need to protect him from harm. He doesn’t need your protection, but you give it anyway.
You realise just how hard you’ve fallen when his pain becomes your pain and you just want to punch the idiots who said those things that bother him late at night.
Because, after all, actually caring is one of the first signs of love.
Do you know how many times I’ve told myself that I’m done? That I’m sick and tired of your mixed signals, your switching minds?
I tell myself everyday that I deserve better; I deserve a guy who won’t mess me around and break my heart for his own selfish purposes; to stroke his ego.
But love isn’t rational and I just know that as long as you keep feeding me the lines, I’ll wait for you. I just can’t bring myself to walk away.
I just can’t figure out why. Why aren’t I good enough? What does she have that I don’t?
Did you know, my 11:11 wish was, for a long time, for happiness. All I ever wanted was to feel content. I wanted to feel comfortable in my own skin; to look at myself in the mirror and not want to break down; to feel intelligent; to feel successful.
But most of all, I just wanted to feel happiness.
I don’t make such wishes anymore. Nowadays, I just wish for you.
You make me feel like I’m on cloud nine and it’s an addictive feeling. You’re the best thing that’s ever happened to me and it scares me how happy I am when I’m around you.
Please, please don’t leave.
You’re the kind of guy who could have any girl he wanted. You’re just perfect enough to fulfil my every dream; intelligent, romantic and oh-so gentlemanly, and yet you’re not without imperfections, and these imperfections make you all the more loveable.
So when you look at me with those adoring eyes, all I can think is: “What on Earth does he see in me?”.
When a guy is crazy about you, it radiates from him and everyone can sense it.
He has eyes for you and you only and upon entering a room he will somehow always find himself next to you. When you’re talking he will lean in just a little too close for comfort and stare into your eyes until you can almost feel his gaze piercing your soul. He will go out of his way, making sacrifices big and small, to make you happy.
A guy who’s crazy in love is a little obsessive, a little jealous, and very protective, even though he’ll often try to hide these traits. If you talk about another guy positively around him, he’ll turn green with envy and feel more dejected than you’d think possible.
A guy who’s crazy about a girl is a whirlwind of emotions. He can be unstable; happy one minute and depressed the next. He presents his best side; his most gentle, most considerate and chivalrous persona surfacing and trying almost desperately to woo the girl.
You can’t miss a guy in love.